This isn't my first post & this idea to blog once more has been sitting in the back of my mind for months! Totally guilty of procrastinating. Anxious and preoccupied with what I will write about this time and how I can be my best self...so here it goes.
I began True Image Yoga over a year ago. It was my side project during the day, a time for me to be creative and think outside the box. I was teaching three yoga classes on Saturday afternoons to children and adults. I was doing my thang.
One day to the next, I was not able to walk and what my medical team suspected was back spams, maybe even piriformis syndrome, shortly we discovered it was more than that. I had sciatica down my left leg and down to my feet. An MRI confirmed I had two herniated discs. I was livid! I was upset and deep deep down, I was grieving. There was anger towards myself for not paying attention sooner, for possibly causing this to happen and of course that wasn't helpful.
I had to let go of teaching on Saturdays. That was really hard for me to do. I had been working two jobs and loved waking up on Saturdays to teach my own style. It felt like I let my inner child down and had to tell her "we can't do this right now and I'm not sure when, but you have other things to worry about". My adult self was in denial that I was an injured person. I was no where near identifying with being unable. I avoided my yoga mats like they were an ex and I kept conversations with others about yoga very brief (no excitement and with very little detail on what I was going through, typical Vero). I signed onto my website and deleted everything.
So here I am... Again. Admitting I have been hesitant which isn't natural for me to do and doing something about it (which is the real* me). Bienvenidos ;)