Secret Life

You have this glare in your eyes

that reels me in

I give you my undivided attention

My drum beat speeds up in my chest

I’m forced to think about my breathing

I have to calm myself around you

& You

You strut around as if none of this is wrong

You step all over me

Know just what I’d want you to say & do

& I

I feel like I’m doing overtime on my downtime

Every time you come around

& You

You treat me indifferently

Which drives me insane and spins me out of control

How the fuck do you do it?

Every. Single. Time.

& You

You walk away like nothing

& I

I clean up the mess you leave you behind

I called to tell you…

We are living separate lives

& only one of them is real